♥ Last Day at Work

Last day at work. Big sigh of relief. No regrets, just hopes. Hv been planning of leaving since last October, but somehow managed to keep it going, since i had to. Big compromise that didn’t really work, but i didn’t hv much choice. Looking forward 2 a new experience with much less compromise. Still unknown…

I won’t think well of the time i spent here, but i’ve certainly learnt alot. What hv i learnt? I think 2 myself..

I’ve learnt that wut’s a year in our lives? doesn’t count 4 much when u lose it, but can change your life if u make good use of it. Time does go by if u just want it to..

I’ve learnt that i hv 2 do what i love in order 2 achieve and be satisfied. Just like i hv 2 be with whom i love. The more i compromise in that, the more i achieve less, and am less happy..

I’ve learnt that at times it seems like i know exactly what i want and what i love, its just very hard to get, so i just hveto make the right compromise. And when i do, hope 4 the best..

I’ve learnt that compromise is part of life, yet too much compromise can hurt..

I’ve learnt that giving up is not an option. When u give up u lose, and no one wants to lose..

I’ve learnt that my career (and job) is important to me, no matter how hard i try to convince myself otherwise. Achievements can be done in various ways, but i’m a single-minded person and that’s usually how i invest in myself. That investment is not 2 make money and hv a higher price, but 2 achieve, 2 do something useful. That is my return on my investment, its the usefulness i convince myself of doing. Contributing 2 the improvement of life as much as i can..

I’ve learnt that a work-life balance is crucial, but work is part of life, and its exhilarating 2 work when u don’t have to. And i miss it..

I’ve learnt that i’ve been raised 2 contribute through my work, & everything else is secondary. While not necessarily right, being raised like that makes thinking otherwise not seem right..

I’ve learnt that nothing lasts. Not the bad thing, nor the good thing. Just try to get as much good as you can. For me, its harder than normal. I’m not a lucky person in general, and things don’t come that easily for me. I miss and miss and miss, even if i try hard enough, but when it works out, it just feels so good. But i know it still doesn’t last..

I’ve learnt that i’m starting to lose my strong sense of attachment to people & to things. It was very easy to quit this job. U’d think that with age my sense of attachment would grow stronger & i’d grow more dependant on things and people i’m attached too, but no. With all the things and people i’ve lost over the years, i’m growing indifferent. Haven’t developed a strong bond to a thing or to a person in ages. Something that i’m most certainly missing, but it makes me travel much lighter..

I’ve learnt that patience is a virtue, but i wish we didn’t have to wait so long, and try so many things, especially when not knowing what the end would be..

I’m also learning that life is as beautiful as we make of it. We think we know what we want, we work on getting what we want, but Allah knows best..

Sometimes i wonder how my life would be if all what i hope for just happens, and all my not-so-successful experiences just never happened. Sounds like it would be nice. But i’m not doing that bad after all, & thanks Allah the Almighty for all. Wouldn’t know what to do without the peaks of hope i get from time to time. And i’m waiting 4 the last transaction to be keyed in the system. The last task 4 me to do in this big gigantic company..yeah. Thats it. ;)